Where Do I Go?
Where Do I Go? features a dynamic, multi-level game structure where the performer navigates a series of grids, points, and confidence metrics, often directed by the audience’s choices. Through symbols such as the rigid grid, the bell of external validation, and playful hopscotch forms, the work subverts traditional measures of success, revealing how confidence often decreases as achievements accumulate—a direct metaphor for the impostor phenomenon. Technical and musical glitches are embraced as creative opportunities, reinforcing the idea that imperfection and system failure are pathways to growth and alternative modes of expression. Gradually, the performer transitions from self-doubt and external control to intrinsic play and agency, culminating in an act of dismantling structures and reclaiming self-directed movement.
publications
Özcan, Zeynep and Gordon, Mya. 2026. "Where Do I Go?: A Game-Based Exploration of Failure and Playfulness as Musical Expression" in Proceedings of the International Conference on New Interfaces for Musical Expression (NIME 2026). London, UK.performances